must i always play the angel?
damnit, i need to learn to say no to humbugs like you.
you with a shaft up your royal behind. your filthy royal behind.
what's flair without humility?

i really need to stop blogging so much. but i guess it comes with being at home 24/7. haha.

well, it's a rainy morning. i have no idea if the rain will stop in 3 hours, because that's when i have to leave the house. but yes, it's a rainy morning, and i hate rainy mornings. simply because everything's dark, which isn't what the morning is supposed to be. so i was standing by the window, looking out into the estates behind, trying to find patterns in the raindrops. there are always lines and such. somehow the rainfall is lighter on one side of the block. all this is adding to the disappointment from last night. i do not like rainy mornings.

then i saw the prettiest yellow bird, with an orange beak and a black tail, gliding, ever so smoothly, ever so gracefully in the rain. so i'm thinking, the raindrops cannot be light, and this bird is so small -- how hard must it be to glide like that? but it has a place to go. and it will do what it takes to get there. even if it means subjecting its body to a rainy morning.

what is sickening is that....
sometimes, you wait.
and that's it. you wait,
for naught.
you wait and you know you shouldn't,
but there's always that sliver of hope.
reality sinks
in,
and hope fails.

this can apply to anything.
this applies to several things in particular, today alone.

Kills you inside and outside
Its all the same anyway.




Hotels-Check!Trek-check!Insurance-check!Luggage-Haven't pack yet! DIE.
Econs test tmrw.
I have NO MOOD TO STUDY.

Sigh.

Okay let me get this straight. What did i do to you you jervis kang faggot -.- Why are you still gossiping about me, are you persistant on like getting all the girls to like you? Are you like some girlwhore? Do you need all of them to be around your finger and hands like rings and bracelets? If this is a case of jealousy, learn to handle it the age you are and not the way girls do. I mean what's up with your childish behaviour. And your in SJI somemore, whatever did the school teach you? To be a backstabbing bitch? To show your dislike for people the way girls do? All i can say is, you've got no life. Your honestly just, a pile of shit. Ha Ha Ha in your face, loser(:

ugh. this..is absolutely sickening.

Socrates pisses me off! He really could be less rude.

Don't panic now. You don't want to regret all this.

I don't want to regret all this.

Sheares supper 2 nights in a row...hahas the lumpylumps are gonna show soon! But oh man the food is soooo good!

jon: did you ever stop to think that you might eat so much because of some emotional need? ...that you eat to compensate for some inner need?

garfield: of course, it's called hunger, you dipstick


gotta love garfield (:

good morning world! another day of inactivity awaits, hope tonight happens!

am super screwed for MEP practical promos!
this morning, we celebrated mr alex loh's birthday and he brought us out to the coffeeshop opposite for breakfast, haha.
carried the cake all the way to the coffeeshop and ate the cake (sliced, of course) on cardboard, like they did for my birthday :D and kaya toast too.
at 8:05 which is the time we're supposed to be assembled at parade square, someone went 'shit what's the time now!' and we all rushed back for assembly.
i can't help thinking about.... mep practical promos...
and how badly i'm going to eff-eff-effing failllllll it.

People spend too much time thinking of the past. Whatever else it is, it's gone.

- The Man Without a Face (1993)

Piano practical for promos is coming up soon.
SO EFFING DEAD FOR IT, PUHLEASE.
and i dont know why but i'm so thirsty all the time.

sheesh.

these days when im listening to argentine the first songs i turn to are

john mayer: slow dancing in a burning room
finch: what it is to burn
mcr: demolition lovers

give 'em a go, either slows your heart to a stop or gets it racing.
chest.pains.are.nothing.to.me.NOTHING.
i want to be the fastest at everything.
even falling.

Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

Anyway, i've been studying and i realise i don't know alot of shit ha. Ohwell, mug mug lenny!
Awesome week ahead for me i must say:
Thursday - Heh:D
Friday - Heh:D also and BAYBEATS! at night later with Eugene.
HELLL YEAAAAAAAAAAAH.
Saturday - BAYBEATS! again hahahah and others
Sunday - BAYBEATS! again MUHAHHA

And that's about it woot.
Prelims after that though ><
And again the word constantly flows in my mind
the word mugging.

fred says: (4:38:47 PM)
i saw your sis in school the other day! ithought it was you!!!
metallica: "love is a four-letter word" well, duh says: (4:38:58 PM)
in sch?
metallica: "love is a four-letter word" well, duh says: (4:39:03 PM)
when?
fred says: (4:39:11 PM)
cant remember
fred says: (4:39:16 PM)
a week back?
fred says: (4:39:26 PM)
with other j3s at the piano
metallica: "love is a four-letter word" well, duh says: (4:39:31 PM)
HAHAZOMG 
fred says: (4:39:31 PM)
singing some song
metallica: "love is a four-letter word" well, duh says: (4:39:34 PM)
i was uh
metallica: "love is a four-letter word" well, duh says: (4:39:34 PM)
me
metallica: "love is a four-letter word" well, duh says: (4:39:35 PM)
hahahah
metallica: "love is a four-letter word" well, duh says: (4:39:37 PM)
nb
metallica: "love is a four-letter word" well, duh says: (4:39:41 PM)
nvr say hello.
fred says: (4:39:41 PM)
lol
fred says: (4:39:45 PM)
it was you?
fred says: (4:39:48 PM)
no it wasnt
metallica: "love is a four-letter word" well, duh says: (4:39:52 PM)
yes it was!
fred says: (4:39:53 PM)
dont trick me
metallica: "love is a four-letter word" well, duh says: (4:39:56 PM)
like, thursday right
fred says: (4:39:56 PM)
haha
fred says: (4:40:01 PM)
u look right at me and didnt say a word
metallica: "love is a four-letter word" well, duh says: (4:40:04 PM)
really!
metallica: "love is a four-letter word" well, duh says: (4:40:08 PM)
i didnt even know lah!
fred says: (4:40:11 PM)
bitch!
fred says: (4:40:16 PM)
not u la
fred says: (4:40:18 PM)
i know its not
fred says: (4:40:20 PM)
long hair
metallica: "love is a four-letter word" well, duh says: (4:40:40 PM)
it is it is it is
fred says: (4:42:02 PM)
fo real?
fred says: (4:42:05 PM)
u couldnt recognise me or wat
fred says: (4:42:11 PM)
i bet ur lying
fred says: (4:42:19 PM)
ur wasting my time
fred says: (4:42:20 PM)
haha
fred says: (4:42:27 PM)
cyaz

Sometimes I ask myself,Are,you really happy?

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
The door is closed, so are your eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes, now I see it

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn to stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you

What I've felt, what I've known
So sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, cause I'm the one who waits
The one who waits for you

Oh, what I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn to stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you

Oh, what I've felt
Oh, what I've known

I take this key
And I bury it in you
Because you're unforgiven too

Never free
Never me
Because you're unforgiven too



ahhh i can't wait for 'the unforgiven III'. can't end-sept come soon enough?

ohoh,
FANTASTIC
by the time we're done cleaning one end of the room,
more dust settles on the other side
what the fuck indeed.
grow up.

EDIT
AHH, more good news :D
if you think you can do this without us knowing, think again,
you want war? bring it on

Lexxy

Is this kidnapping or robbery?

- Amores Perros (2000)

The Nike Human Race is approaching!
the shirt i got was abit too big...IS abit too big, at the bottoms because yea it curves out.
guess they expected ooooold people to be running?

i still want to do a marathon one day.
the pain that comes with it, will get my adrenaline going, ithink.
i think that's the kind of person i am.
i need to experience pain. and if i like it, i'm like 'lets go all the way' but if i hate the pain, like.... cross-country training, ironically, then im like 'okay stop this is dumb.'

W-ELL. marathon at luxury pace.
can whaaaat.

meanwhile, it's the last week of school and then its mugging mugging and more mugging or some hopeful imitation of the action.
then hopefully....

 PRIYA GORDON TAN AH MENG!!! ASK ME IF I FREE ON WEDNESDAY I SAY NO ONLY FREE ON THURSDAY NOW THAT STUPID TOOT MSG ME SAYING LOOKING FORWARD TO SEE YOU ON THURSDAY! WTF!!! TRUST ME...HE WILL BE IN FOR A HUGE SURPRISE... 

see previous entry to understand this...

bah humbug. haha. hl has a night's off today...but i have to be in church! i really doubt we can finish the newsletter before fr andrew leaves, which also means that i'm the one to show him the finished product tomorrow?! i have never, ever attempted to speak to him alone. roar. sarah, amy and raph are all busy tomorrow...argh argh. and i have to do raph's sharing for sunday's 9am mass. wtp wtp wtp i hope my own experience at 7am won't be too scary.